It is just the scariest and most painful thing to see the closest people to you like your family and friends to not know God, and just leave this world. Where will they go? They will be lost in eternity.
What if you don't know when will they leave you? And the fact that you know that you will never see them again, and that they will be lost forever, it is just excruciating. Every time when I am asked if I needed a miracle, this is always the first thing which comes to my mind. I really need my family to know God, and believe in Him. Not just by the words of their mouth, but with all their heart and soul, they believe that He is our Provider, our Saviour, our Best Friend, our Greatest Love and everything we could ever ask for.
Every time when I see my parents grow older by the year, and my dad's unhealthy eating habits, I just get so worried. My heart aches thinking that they will be gone forever, and not going to be with the Father. And I will not be with them up there. It makes me weep every time it crosses my mind.
It hurts me so much each time I am doubted that God is real, and that God provides to us by someone I'm so close to. It hurts me even more when they think that it is themselves who worked so hard to earn all that money and status, and not God who blessed them.
I will be patient. I will wait. Mindsets will be changed. I will not be defeated by all these hurt. I will be strong.