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This is me. :)
BOUT ME
Name's Ai Ling.
God's child.
Malaysian and proud to be one!
Currently in Melbourne, Australia.
Bachelor of Commerce, University of Melbourne final year student.
Birthday's 27th September 1987.
Part of planetUNI - ULU26!
Really love just spending time with close friends and family.
Truly believes in her Saviour and is very thankful.
Always cheerful, joyous and loud, or at least tries to be.
Before I came to Melbourne more than 2 years ago, I knew there was a part of me which was lost, a part of me which was longing for something far beyond something which is indescribable. It was probably the reason why I went into relationships with foolishness, hurting others and hurting myself as well. I guess every one of us have done foolish things in our lives - especially when we were younger, or even now (cos I am still quite young what hehehe).
I was hurt so deeply by a relationship in the past which I couldn't let go even after more than 2 years have passed. But until I came to Melbourne, and when I found the 'thing' which I have been longing for, my life have never been the same again.
I have always been a happy-go-lucky person in the outside. I always seemed happy to everyone - to the point that my friends said they have never seen me angry before, or even sad, even though they have known me for like 5 years, or even more. I have always been hiding all my true feelings to the whole wide world, even my family members or best friends. Because I never wanted people to worry for me unnecessarily, or maybe I was just ego. I thought I could handle everything on my own (teenager mah then, a bit rebellious and used to think I was very matured haha).
But after I found true love, it has never been the same. I am not talking about true love with a boy (and yes, I do love my bf very dearly, never think otherwise), but I am talking about a love which is far beyond something which is indescribable, like said above. It is such an honour and privilege to be able to experience a love like this.
In this world, which is filled with pain and worries and anxieties, it is such a normal thing for a parent to say things which they regret after, for a child to blame him/herself after their parents decide to divorce, for a child to run from home, for a friend to betray, or for a guy to cheat on his girlfriend or the other way around.
But despite of all that crap, He promised us that He will never leave nor forsake us, no matter what the circumstance is.
Deuteronomy 31: 8 "The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."
Obviously life will never be perfect and have zero pain or worries, or we will never learn or need God in the first place. He created us in a way where we are given a choice to love Him back or not. It is like a father who just wants a child to love him back, but it is not by force - it is by choice.
I know that I can always find a place of rest and a place to just pour my out at. And I am so thankful. I hope you understand my heart and just hear my heart.
Some of you may find my post boring and unrelated to you, or some may find it interesting and inspirational (hahaha I wish la), or just something to pass time. But I really hope that it touched your heart, somehow or another. :) Bless ya!